Virginia Tech...

I'm having a rather emo moment now... been sitting here in my room crying for the past 30 minutes because i willed myself to read through the memoriams of the kids who died in the virginia tech shooting...

ever wonder why we are so numb to these kind of news? it's been 4 days now and this is the 1st time i am truly appreciating the grief and senselessness of these young people having been shot and just leave this way...

in midst of our busy busy lives.. these things begin to sound so distant, so "news", more sensation and informational, rather than human...

when i read the messages left behind by the friends and family of these people on cnn... i just can't help but cry, because i finally understand now the heartache of this tragedy. Amongst the victims, there were the brilliant, the good friends, the devoted brothers and sisters, the ones who have brought cheer and laughter to the people they have touched, the ordinary heroes, the ones with dreams, the ones who wanted to safe the world, the humanitarian, the linguist, the joker, the lover.... the list is extensive, of what these individuals have meant to the people who loved them... and now their lives, cruelly cut short, the dreams and hopes aborted, their presence taken away from us...

I cannot begin to describe how i would feel if that happened to someone i know, to any of you... Because then i would be tearfully writing about how i miss huay yin, elaine and carol's hyena-like laughter, aaron's dashing vanity, mei har's patience disguised as impatience, shane's space-outness, wei lee's wisdom and friendship,

I am glad i cried today. I feel human now.

I love you guys!